Re-Evaluations

I've been thinking about what I need to do to fulfill my affirmation of eating and living healthy and fit. It may seem simple to just say I need to eat less and exercise, but there are several challenges in lifestyle changes. I just know that I don't want to gain any more weight. I need some motivation. Not anything horrible or scary or traumatizing. I'm not completely comfortable with the way my body looks. I'll come up with something. Meanwhile, I've committed to affirmations. I write them down frequently anytime I think of anything I need to affirm. However there is something bothering me.

I feel like I'm trying to start a career that ultimately doesn't make any sense. I feel like everyday is so unpredictable. I need to be focusing on something else. Its an anxiety. It's what is going on in the world today with all of these natural disasters and the rising costs. Will we ever recover? Who is responsible for the pain and suffering of others? I feel that we all are responsible for the pain and suffering of others. Hence my anxiety. How can I just live to build a great paying career alone. I have a responsibility to those who are suffering in the world. When I look at the world news, I realize how safe I feel and how awful it is for someone who is living in fear each day. I don't know what to do, but I can't quit my goals to think about it. If I quit my goals there must be an alternative opportunity.

I often wonder what it is that would make me happy in life. I don't need to be rich. When I affirm wealth, I affirm it in several senses of the word. Wealth of health, family, love, positivity. I just need to know that I am living a life that is dedicated to fulfilling truth and love. Sometimes I dream of being a folk singer who strums to the voice of those suffering. Sometimes I think about singing about what is going on in the world today. I know that it is a possibility because I believe there are infinite possibilities for me. Its just a matter of realizing and claiming them.

One of my affirmations is for spiritual clarity. I need to put in the work for that. You know the verse seek and ye shall find and knock and the door will be opened unto you. I think I'll start with proverbs because nothing is new under the sun. The questions I have are the questions that the great philosophers have already pondered. I'm not original in my questions about the ongoing and ever-present plight of mankind. I just want to put things into perspective even if that means that I accept that I cannot put things into full perspective. I want to create a life for myself that will allow me to be in total awe of the magnificent awesomeness of the creator.