Thank the almighty that I've made it through another week, and another day. This week I saw two men walking in the middle of the road and highway on separate occasions. I had to thank the Almighty for sanity, food, clothes, and shelter. There are several personal flaws that I need to troubleshoot. I have some character flaws that must be confronted and solved. I quit smoking cold turkey a couple of months ago. I know that if I dream it; I can achieve it. I am frustrated by several things that i do not have. I don't know where to begin to get them in the immediate future. I need a new car, I want a macbook, I need a fall internship, I need to pay off my school and credit card loans, and I need to be able to own my residence after I graduate. I haven't been doing daily affirmations, but I know that I need to start. I cannot sit still, waiting to figure out the solution. I will affirm and achieve.
I've been reading 7 Habits of Highly Successful People for one of my classes. It talked about dependence, independence, and interdependence. I agree with covey on being independent before being interdependent. I haven't been in a relationship in a long time. I am not stressing it because I don't feel like I am ready for one. I am not independent in several ways. I have several character flaws that I need to work on. I know that when I am ready and truly desire a relationship; I will be in one. I do not seek casual relationships. I know that I want meaningful ones.
Therefore my affirmations are:
Character
I am always at least fifteen minutes early to any scheduled appointment.
I am patient.
I do not let conflicts bother me.
Lifestle
I live a balanced life
I achieve any goal I affirm
I do not rely on food for comfort.
I am active
I eat helthy
I am healthy
I am happy
Goals
I own a Toyota Prius
Money always flows into my posession
I own a Macbook
I pay off my loans and bills
I realize and seize opportunities
I make excellent impressions on people
I have a fall internship that is relative to my major, close to school, and pays at least $10/hr
I am independent
I am mature thinking and doing
I know that these affirmations my not be under the currect category. I am tired. It would be too time consuming to write all of these down several times a day, Therefore I reserve them for any time I have free and weekends. I've decided on three goals that I will achieve before I return to school. I will write them in my aiffirmation journal and document changes on this blog.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Monday, June 2, 2008
Re-Evaluations
I've been thinking about what I need to do to fulfill my affirmation of eating and living healthy and fit. It may seem simple to just say I need to eat less and exercise, but there are several challenges in lifestyle changes. I just know that I don't want to gain any more weight. I need some motivation. Not anything horrible or scary or traumatizing. I'm not completely comfortable with the way my body looks. I'll come up with something. Meanwhile, I've committed to affirmations. I write them down frequently anytime I think of anything I need to affirm. However there is something bothering me.
I feel like I'm trying to start a career that ultimately doesn't make any sense. I feel like everyday is so unpredictable. I need to be focusing on something else. Its an anxiety. It's what is going on in the world today with all of these natural disasters and the rising costs. Will we ever recover? Who is responsible for the pain and suffering of others? I feel that we all are responsible for the pain and suffering of others. Hence my anxiety. How can I just live to build a great paying career alone. I have a responsibility to those who are suffering in the world. When I look at the world news, I realize how safe I feel and how awful it is for someone who is living in fear each day. I don't know what to do, but I can't quit my goals to think about it. If I quit my goals there must be an alternative opportunity.
I often wonder what it is that would make me happy in life. I don't need to be rich. When I affirm wealth, I affirm it in several senses of the word. Wealth of health, family, love, positivity. I just need to know that I am living a life that is dedicated to fulfilling truth and love. Sometimes I dream of being a folk singer who strums to the voice of those suffering. Sometimes I think about singing about what is going on in the world today. I know that it is a possibility because I believe there are infinite possibilities for me. Its just a matter of realizing and claiming them.
One of my affirmations is for spiritual clarity. I need to put in the work for that. You know the verse seek and ye shall find and knock and the door will be opened unto you. I think I'll start with proverbs because nothing is new under the sun. The questions I have are the questions that the great philosophers have already pondered. I'm not original in my questions about the ongoing and ever-present plight of mankind. I just want to put things into perspective even if that means that I accept that I cannot put things into full perspective. I want to create a life for myself that will allow me to be in total awe of the magnificent awesomeness of the creator.
I feel like I'm trying to start a career that ultimately doesn't make any sense. I feel like everyday is so unpredictable. I need to be focusing on something else. Its an anxiety. It's what is going on in the world today with all of these natural disasters and the rising costs. Will we ever recover? Who is responsible for the pain and suffering of others? I feel that we all are responsible for the pain and suffering of others. Hence my anxiety. How can I just live to build a great paying career alone. I have a responsibility to those who are suffering in the world. When I look at the world news, I realize how safe I feel and how awful it is for someone who is living in fear each day. I don't know what to do, but I can't quit my goals to think about it. If I quit my goals there must be an alternative opportunity.
I often wonder what it is that would make me happy in life. I don't need to be rich. When I affirm wealth, I affirm it in several senses of the word. Wealth of health, family, love, positivity. I just need to know that I am living a life that is dedicated to fulfilling truth and love. Sometimes I dream of being a folk singer who strums to the voice of those suffering. Sometimes I think about singing about what is going on in the world today. I know that it is a possibility because I believe there are infinite possibilities for me. Its just a matter of realizing and claiming them.
One of my affirmations is for spiritual clarity. I need to put in the work for that. You know the verse seek and ye shall find and knock and the door will be opened unto you. I think I'll start with proverbs because nothing is new under the sun. The questions I have are the questions that the great philosophers have already pondered. I'm not original in my questions about the ongoing and ever-present plight of mankind. I just want to put things into perspective even if that means that I accept that I cannot put things into full perspective. I want to create a life for myself that will allow me to be in total awe of the magnificent awesomeness of the creator.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Realizing Possibilities
I am still astonished at my success this past semester. It was so stressful and busy, but I made it through. A week after the spring semester was over, I started summer classes and by golly I got a job offer that I accepted. It combines both of my majors and the specialty that I'm pursuing. It's so amazing. I am so thrilled! It all happened so quickly. I've continued to say, write, think, and live my affirmations.
This new job offer was great, but the pay wasn't enough. I wrote down my affirmation for the salary I wanted and wrote a negotiation letter. Could you believe that the person who hired me offered me the exact amount I wanted. I spoke to so many family and friends about it and I received alot of negative and positive responses. I didn't let the negative deter me. I knew I needed the exact amount I wanted. I had to praise the almighty for this opportunity. I know that affirmations work, but I don't attribute all of my realizations to myself. There is a higher positive energy flowing through us, around us, and in us. I thank the almighty for the gift of realization.
I define who I am and where I am going. I am the master of my fate. I am responsible for my actions. I realize truth. I honor the almighty in everything I do.
I've stumbled when affirmations don't go my way. For example, I was late for an appointment and I started to affirm my timely arrival, however I didn't make it on time. I couldn't doubt affirmations or come to the conclusion that they are sometimey. The truth is that I did not do all that I could to make it on time. I knew that it was an unfamiliar area and left too late. I've committed to action. I cannot sit around waiting for my affirmations to arise if I'm not taking all actions necessary. Right now i'm struggling with eating healthy and living healthy. I am not doing all that I can to lose weight. I am not getting up and working out. I cannot expect to be healthy if I don't live healthy. I feel like I don't know where to start. That feeling is a problem. The truth is that I do know where to start because I trust that I know what is right and what is wrong. So i'll update to my non-audience about that, lol.
This new job offer was great, but the pay wasn't enough. I wrote down my affirmation for the salary I wanted and wrote a negotiation letter. Could you believe that the person who hired me offered me the exact amount I wanted. I spoke to so many family and friends about it and I received alot of negative and positive responses. I didn't let the negative deter me. I knew I needed the exact amount I wanted. I had to praise the almighty for this opportunity. I know that affirmations work, but I don't attribute all of my realizations to myself. There is a higher positive energy flowing through us, around us, and in us. I thank the almighty for the gift of realization.
I define who I am and where I am going. I am the master of my fate. I am responsible for my actions. I realize truth. I honor the almighty in everything I do.
I've stumbled when affirmations don't go my way. For example, I was late for an appointment and I started to affirm my timely arrival, however I didn't make it on time. I couldn't doubt affirmations or come to the conclusion that they are sometimey. The truth is that I did not do all that I could to make it on time. I knew that it was an unfamiliar area and left too late. I've committed to action. I cannot sit around waiting for my affirmations to arise if I'm not taking all actions necessary. Right now i'm struggling with eating healthy and living healthy. I am not doing all that I can to lose weight. I am not getting up and working out. I cannot expect to be healthy if I don't live healthy. I feel like I don't know where to start. That feeling is a problem. The truth is that I do know where to start because I trust that I know what is right and what is wrong. So i'll update to my non-audience about that, lol.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
I Made It!
I made it through this very rough and difficult semester. I took seven classes and worked two jobs. I made some A's and B's. I am so grateful to the almighty for this! I can't believe I actually made it through! I should though. I'm glad I discovered affirmations for myself. I haven't really been able to see the effects of affirmations. I can see that I am resourceful and that I am peaceful. I need to pay more attention, but affirmations have helped.
My Bob Marley collection has also helped me to calm down and reflect. I know that most people know about how fantastic Bob Marley was, but I have to say that he was definitely a musical genius and a visionary. Heavy in rotation are the songs Who the Cap Fit, Guiltiness, and Zimbabwe. Of course One Love and Jamming are among my favorites as well. I love that these two songs are about praising God. I love the jazz, funk, soul, and African drum fusion with the reggae strum.
Before knowing about Affirmations I wrote on my bathroom mirror, 'I will succeed in everything Accounting and IS' (information systems). I guess I knew the power of words. I guess now I would say 'I succeed in everything Accounting and IS'. There are 'I will' affirmations, but I view affirmations as realities that already exist, I just have to claim or realize them.
My Bob Marley collection has also helped me to calm down and reflect. I know that most people know about how fantastic Bob Marley was, but I have to say that he was definitely a musical genius and a visionary. Heavy in rotation are the songs Who the Cap Fit, Guiltiness, and Zimbabwe. Of course One Love and Jamming are among my favorites as well. I love that these two songs are about praising God. I love the jazz, funk, soul, and African drum fusion with the reggae strum.
Before knowing about Affirmations I wrote on my bathroom mirror, 'I will succeed in everything Accounting and IS' (information systems). I guess I knew the power of words. I guess now I would say 'I succeed in everything Accounting and IS'. There are 'I will' affirmations, but I view affirmations as realities that already exist, I just have to claim or realize them.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Day 6
I've been doing my affirmations. I've been paying attention to myself. I've noticed some changes.
I just realized that think affirmations all the time. I am constantly adding affirmations to my list. I haven't been writing the affirmations down 15 times each but I've been taking the time to think about what I want and writing down different affirmations each day. Many affirmations are repetitive. I know what I want out of life, therefore my affirmations reflect this knowledge. My most recent affirmation is:
- I am truthful. This affirmation has produced some guilt that I feel that I must get rid of.
- I am wealthy. This affirmation has made me less anxious about money.
- I am successful. This affirmation has me less worried about getting a job after I graduate.
- I am sure. This affirmation has allowed me to trust more in myself.
- I am positive. This affirmation is constant and allows me to put away doubt, fear and negativity. It allows me to close my mouth before saying bad things about people. "I am positive" realizes the positivity that is always present.
I just realized that think affirmations all the time. I am constantly adding affirmations to my list. I haven't been writing the affirmations down 15 times each but I've been taking the time to think about what I want and writing down different affirmations each day. Many affirmations are repetitive. I know what I want out of life, therefore my affirmations reflect this knowledge. My most recent affirmation is:
I perform phenomenally on my finals this week.
So be it. A couple more for the road. I solve problems. I am kind. I attract kindness and happiness. I attract wealth and prosperity. I am confident. I am thankful. I am creative. I am aware.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Day 3
Affirmations
I had a good day. I remained positive today. Much of my thoughts were on spiritual subjects. I found more articles on affirmations and vibrations. I maintain an affirmation of truth. I affirm that I am open to the truth. I don't want to just let everything in. That is to say, I accept positivity into my life. I accept Yahweh Elohim's love into my heart. I am open to receive the wisdom and understanding provided by the Lord. These are my affirmations of spirituality. I find myself affirming several things throughout the day. I am wealthy. I am smart. I am sure. I am successful. I am positive. I overcome. I do these without trying.
Questions
I've been struggling with several spiritual concepts lately. One notably being the question of pain and suffering in the world. How can a God that loves us cause us to suffer. I then thought about what it means to have free will and how affirmations and the power of words relate to prayer. God doesn't allow suffering, we do. People are hurting each and everyday and ideally if we all began to love each other, there would be no more pain and suffering.
Power of words
God spoke this world into existence. Therein lies the power of words. There is power in the name of Jesus. What does that truly mean? To me, this means that there is power in words. If we can think it, it is or can be or is recognized. I never really thought much about why I was a Christian or really probed my feelings on faith and truth. I've just been seeking truth or thought I was seeking truth without really doing much to find it. I have been very frustrated with my confusion about religion and spirituality. Truthful to me is the fact that when I pray, the Lord answers my prayers in some way or another. I know that each day I feel compelled to thank the Lord for something. I am thankful hearing, seeing, feeling, breathing, walking, speaking, learning, thinking, sunshine, moments, rain..etc. I am blessed in several ways, its astonishing. What is also truthful to me is the fact that I religion is a tool to separate human beings.
Genesis
I read in Genesis 3 today about the fall of man. Most people know that the Lord created the world as we know it in six days and rested on the seventh. Unlike the world, humankind is formed out of the earth and breath is given to us by the Lord. Man and Woman are in a garden at this time that contains two trees that are off limits. The tree of knowledge of good and evil and the tree of life. The fall occurs when Eve partakes of the fruit of knowledge of good and evil; disobeying the Lord's command. Eve is tempted by a serpent that tells her that eating the fruit will not surely make her die. She is also informed that eating the fruit will make her like her creator or God. Skipping past a few things. A few verses down it also says that "The man has now become like one of us knowing both good and evil". Gen3:22. One thing that immediately struck me is the language. Who is "us" in this passage. This implies that there are more than one with the power that the almighty possesses. Could this be Christ and the holy spirit? Either way evil exists before man is made. If God is all, in all, and through all; how can God contain evil?
Tangent...
I read an article today about television and attraction. The article talked about the negativity being transferred from the TV to us. It also spoke about the media making manipulating our emotions. Funny that I came across this article as I've been pondering the role of television in my life. I feel as if the TV is distracting everyone from what is truly going on in the world today. Its sort of bittersweet because TV has taught me alot about places I've never been, people I've never met and the plight of those I didn't know existed. The article mentions that TV takes away from our creativity and does not serve us spiritually.
Wrap-up
I know that these have been alot of random thoughts. I don't expect anyone to read this blog. I just need to write down how I am feeling right now. I conclude that I strive to be like Jesus, I find truth, I am open to positive spiritual guidance. I don't feel comfortable using the word God. It feels like the word just does not define well. Yahweh Elohim means Most high God. I like almighty, most high, and supreme. I realized that cannot just attempt affirmations like I did in my post on day one. I must be what I affirm to be. So I don't say I will be. I say I am. I am wealthy means that I am wealthy in every sense of the word. Instead of money will flow my way, I say money flows my way. Instead of saying I will grow spiritually, I say "I accept spiritual growth or I am open to spiritual growth". Oh yea and I love that blogger uses javascript so that going forward and back on a page does not clear this form. Also, I reject and repel negativity and fear.
I had a good day. I remained positive today. Much of my thoughts were on spiritual subjects. I found more articles on affirmations and vibrations. I maintain an affirmation of truth. I affirm that I am open to the truth. I don't want to just let everything in. That is to say, I accept positivity into my life. I accept Yahweh Elohim's love into my heart. I am open to receive the wisdom and understanding provided by the Lord. These are my affirmations of spirituality. I find myself affirming several things throughout the day. I am wealthy. I am smart. I am sure. I am successful. I am positive. I overcome. I do these without trying.
Questions
I've been struggling with several spiritual concepts lately. One notably being the question of pain and suffering in the world. How can a God that loves us cause us to suffer. I then thought about what it means to have free will and how affirmations and the power of words relate to prayer. God doesn't allow suffering, we do. People are hurting each and everyday and ideally if we all began to love each other, there would be no more pain and suffering.
Power of words
God spoke this world into existence. Therein lies the power of words. There is power in the name of Jesus. What does that truly mean? To me, this means that there is power in words. If we can think it, it is or can be or is recognized. I never really thought much about why I was a Christian or really probed my feelings on faith and truth. I've just been seeking truth or thought I was seeking truth without really doing much to find it. I have been very frustrated with my confusion about religion and spirituality. Truthful to me is the fact that when I pray, the Lord answers my prayers in some way or another. I know that each day I feel compelled to thank the Lord for something. I am thankful hearing, seeing, feeling, breathing, walking, speaking, learning, thinking, sunshine, moments, rain..etc. I am blessed in several ways, its astonishing. What is also truthful to me is the fact that I religion is a tool to separate human beings.
Genesis
I read in Genesis 3 today about the fall of man. Most people know that the Lord created the world as we know it in six days and rested on the seventh. Unlike the world, humankind is formed out of the earth and breath is given to us by the Lord. Man and Woman are in a garden at this time that contains two trees that are off limits. The tree of knowledge of good and evil and the tree of life. The fall occurs when Eve partakes of the fruit of knowledge of good and evil; disobeying the Lord's command. Eve is tempted by a serpent that tells her that eating the fruit will not surely make her die. She is also informed that eating the fruit will make her like her creator or God. Skipping past a few things. A few verses down it also says that "The man has now become like one of us knowing both good and evil". Gen3:22. One thing that immediately struck me is the language. Who is "us" in this passage. This implies that there are more than one with the power that the almighty possesses. Could this be Christ and the holy spirit? Either way evil exists before man is made. If God is all, in all, and through all; how can God contain evil?
Tangent...
I read an article today about television and attraction. The article talked about the negativity being transferred from the TV to us. It also spoke about the media making manipulating our emotions. Funny that I came across this article as I've been pondering the role of television in my life. I feel as if the TV is distracting everyone from what is truly going on in the world today. Its sort of bittersweet because TV has taught me alot about places I've never been, people I've never met and the plight of those I didn't know existed. The article mentions that TV takes away from our creativity and does not serve us spiritually.
Wrap-up
I know that these have been alot of random thoughts. I don't expect anyone to read this blog. I just need to write down how I am feeling right now. I conclude that I strive to be like Jesus, I find truth, I am open to positive spiritual guidance. I don't feel comfortable using the word God. It feels like the word just does not define well. Yahweh Elohim means Most high God. I like almighty, most high, and supreme. I realized that cannot just attempt affirmations like I did in my post on day one. I must be what I affirm to be. So I don't say I will be. I say I am. I am wealthy means that I am wealthy in every sense of the word. Instead of money will flow my way, I say money flows my way. Instead of saying I will grow spiritually, I say "I accept spiritual growth or I am open to spiritual growth". Oh yea and I love that blogger uses javascript so that going forward and back on a page does not clear this form. Also, I reject and repel negativity and fear.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Day 2
I've been thinking about my blog yesterday and my affirmation to lose all of this weight by the end of the year. I don't know if its negativity and doubt, but I feel like I should not pursue this goal. I want to lose the weight but maybe I need to concentrate more on managing my food addiction or maybe I should establish an exercise goal. Maybe these these two things should be part of my pursuit. Either way my car is still broken and I have to alot more walking. I don't know how long my car will be out of commission. I do not have the money right now to fix it. Luckily, I live close enough to my college campus to catch the bus or walk. It'll be a 20-30 min walk, but thats what legs are for. I want to do so many things, but money is always an prohibiting factor. I want to go with my school for an outdoor trip but I do not have the money to go. What I've been wanting to do for some time is to take trips outdoors. I want to go camping, hiking, kayaking, etc. I just don't have the money for any equipment or rentals. The majority of my money goes to buying groceries and gas, both of which are increasing in price everyday.
I feel doubtful about several of my affirmations. I need to overcome my negativity and I don't know where to start. I don't know how to start having money flow my way or how to start tackling my food addiction. I don't know how I will be able to have a better year. I have very few friends here. It has been difficult for me to make friends. I'm wondering if it has been all of the negativity I've been emitting.
I feel doubtful about several of my affirmations. I need to overcome my negativity and I don't know where to start. I don't know how to start having money flow my way or how to start tackling my food addiction. I don't know how I will be able to have a better year. I have very few friends here. It has been difficult for me to make friends. I'm wondering if it has been all of the negativity I've been emitting.
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