Day 2

I've been thinking about my blog yesterday and my affirmation to lose all of this weight by the end of the year. I don't know if its negativity and doubt, but I feel like I should not pursue this goal. I want to lose the weight but maybe I need to concentrate more on managing my food addiction or maybe I should establish an exercise goal. Maybe these these two things should be part of my pursuit. Either way my car is still broken and I have to alot more walking. I don't know how long my car will be out of commission. I do not have the money right now to fix it. Luckily, I live close enough to my college campus to catch the bus or walk. It'll be a 20-30 min walk, but thats what legs are for. I want to do so many things, but money is always an prohibiting factor. I want to go with my school for an outdoor trip but I do not have the money to go. What I've been wanting to do for some time is to take trips outdoors. I want to go camping, hiking, kayaking, etc. I just don't have the money for any equipment or rentals. The majority of my money goes to buying groceries and gas, both of which are increasing in price everyday.

I feel doubtful about several of my affirmations. I need to overcome my negativity and I don't know where to start. I don't know how to start having money flow my way or how to start tackling my food addiction. I don't know how I will be able to have a better year. I have very few friends here. It has been difficult for me to make friends. I'm wondering if it has been all of the negativity I've been emitting.