Day One

Not much has changed since my last post almost two years ago. I am still fed up with the same things. Its kinda funny how my emotions lead me full circle back to this blog. When I created it I thought it would help me vent about things that were bothering me. I had no one to talk to and I still don't. I've had to deal with alot of issues by myself. I figure whining about my concerns won't do anything, which has been made very evident to me by my last post. I've decided to do affirmations.

Affirmations are positive thoughts and sayings that you repeat or write every day. Its goal is help you attain the reality that you wish to live in. This concept appealed to me because I have a very unhealthy habit of wishing or imagining my life is different everyday. I wish that I could win the lottery to pay off loans and bills and buy a new car. I wish that I was shorter, had longer hair, beautiful skin, perfect teeth, confidence, cute shape and size, etc. I am seriously disappointed when I wake up in the morning and see that things are the same. I can't live like this anymore. I have only one life and one chance to make it work.

I've come up with a list of 10 affirmations that I will write and say each day. I will blog about these affirmations to see if doing this will change my life. Some say that affirmations are simply a way for psyching yourself out. Others say that its like a boomerang. You throw out positivity and it returns. What appealed to me most is the taoist belief that all thoughts have an objective reality and physical existence. This concept does not only rely on saying or writing what I want, but also doing everything in my power to make it happen. It involves overcoming myself and others' negativity to finally live my life to the fullest.

My ten affirmations are
1. I will have a clear understanding of the universe, the ALL, and the truth. I will grow spiritually
each day.
2. I will lose 100 lbs by December 31, 2008.
3. I will cleanse and purify my body of all diseases.
4. I will overcome my food addiction.
5. I will overcome all of my emotional ailments.
6. I will sing and perform on the guitar 5 songs that I have written in front of an audience.
7. I will have the most positive, adventurous and memorable experiences this year (2008).
8. I will land a terrific job before December 12, 2008
9. Money will always be coming my way.
10. I will be surrounded by positive, caring, and loving people at all times.

These affirmations are not exactly in the order that I originally wrote them. Losing weight was first, spirituality was second and purification was third. All I can say is that today my car broke down so I have to walk everywhere. Maybe that's the universe telling me that I should get off of my butt and exercise to lose this weight!! hahaha!

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